My Last yoga session update was 17 days ago. Truth be told, I haven’t done much since that time. I’ve been incredibly busy with moving all my Bubblews posts to the blog, but that’s really not the whole reason why I haven’t been doing my routines.
I dug down to the real truth last night. That truth is that I haven’t wanted to do the sessions because my body isn’t where I want it to be. I can’t even really do yoga because I have so little flexibility. 95% of the positions hurt me a lot, and there are many that I can’t even begin to do right. I got frustrated and upset and just didn’t want to be bothered. I’m upset with myself for giving up like that, but it’s in the past now, and all I can do from here is try to move forward.
I pulled out the yoga mat and my Insight Timer again today, and while I didn’t make it the 25 minutes I had the timer set for, I did make it for 15. Was I doing yoga? No, unfortunately that’s just not possible right now, so I was stretching. It hurts and I don’t enjoy it, but I really want my body to be more flexible and in better shape, so I suppose it’s a necessary evil.
I really wish that I could just wave a magic wand and suddenly be flexible, but that’s not going to happen. I have to work for it. I’m going to let this all rattle around in my brain and see if I can find a way to be more enthusiastic about the process. If I can’t find a way to like what I’m doing, I’ll quit again. I am proud that I made it a whole six weeks before throwing in the towel, but I want to do better this time. I really do want to get my body into better shape, it’s just frustrating when you can’t even do something as simple as touch your toes.
I don’t know how often I’ll make updates on this now, but I promise that I will. I’m going to keep at it. I’d like to commit myself to two 15 minute sessions a day. I think if I could do that, I could get stretched out and be flexible enough for yoga, although I have no idea how long it will take. The one thing I do know is that if I do nothing, I’ll never get anywhere.