I’m trying to write my ten posts for today. I’m trying to be uplifting and awesome and helpful. I love helping people, it’s one of my great joys. However, I’m just completely distracted today.
All I can think about right now is one beautiful thing: my new home. As you may remember, I mentioned that I’m sharing a house with family right now. I’m grateful to have a place to live and I love my family, but the time for me to have a place of my own is long overdue. I need privacy and choice and room to grow. This life and this home no longer serve my needs.
Last night Eric and I started making a list of what we want in a home and in a new life. We kept it basic, the necessities more or less, but it got us in that “feeling place” as Abraham-Hicks would call it. Now I’m just filled with this enthusiasm and wonder and happiness. I’m more excited about this thought than I have been about anything in a long time.
Unfortunately, this feeling is distracting me from work. That’s actually why I’m writing about it, two birds with one stone as they say. But really, I’d rather be doing research to find a state with the perfect climate, or dream browsing houses. I’d rather be making Pinterest boards filled with the things we’ll need for a new home. I’d rather be getting lost in the fantastic thoughts of being in my own place, having the freedom of the space and living my wonderful new life.
This is the first time that I’ve ever thought about having my own home and felt such enthusiasm and excitement. I want to hold on to it. I believe that this kind of high, positive energy is exactly what makes things manifest in people’s lives. For the first time, I feel like this is a pending reality, and not just a dream that will never come true. I feel so good!
[takes deep breath] Alas, I do want to get my ten posts for the day, and I want them to be good. I’m wondering if there’s a way to combine the two; to somehow write in ways that allow me to think about this beautiful goal and how wonderful it will be. Maybe I need to break my usual format and just dream out loud with all of you. I don’t know. We’ll see what happens.