I got rid of a lot of my “fat” clothes some time back, but I held on to some of the clothes that were a little snug, hoping I’d be able to fit back into them eventually. As luck would have it, now I can!
The funny thing is I haven’t lost much more weight since the last time I tried those clothes on. Maybe 2 or 3 pounds at most. I have, however, reshaped. Things have gotten tighter, and I now have nice curves instead of a… Well, I’m not going to describe how I thought I looked before. No need to get negative.
I put on a black dress that I wore last year, and I filled it out then, and not in the good way. This year it hung in a flattering way and I looked and felt great in it. I tried on another dress, and it looked great too. That was especially amazing due to the fact that it has horizontal stripes, which are notorious for making women look wider than they really are. Last year I felt gross in that dress, but this year I felt hot in it.
I tried on some other things from my closet too, and they fit perfectly. No more stretching at the seams, no more straining at the buttons. No longer do I have to suck in my stomach and hold my breath and still not look good. Things fit like they were made for me. My curves looked amazing and I felt so beautiful. I love that! [laughs] it’s actually a little annoying that I’m going to have to buy new clothes again, and I just bought some a few months ago. My weight has barely changed but my body shape has really shifted.
It’s got to be the yoga and the reduction in my stress levels. Plus I’ve been working really hard to break the BDD mentality. I’ve been looking at myself in new ways and finding my real beauty. I’m bringing the awesomeness that’s inside to the surface, and working to get the package improved too. I’m not fighting my body anymore, I’m embracing it, and it seems to be working wonders.
It’s funny, I was joking a while back that I was going to look better at 40 than I did at 25. It looks like I’m going to do just that! Eric actually looked at me last night and said “I honestly think this is the hottest you’ve ever looked. You were always beautiful, but… wow!” What woman doesn’t want to hear something like that?!