As I was writing my last post about people needing to pay attention to the dates on my poetry and how it was a story of my life, I got to thinking about how people can perceive poetry, or any written work for that matter. It can be difficult for people to separate reality from creativity and understand when inspiration comes from places other than love and happiness. It’s actually difficult to even try to explain.
Just as an example though, I recently wrote three pieces of poetry. Two of them came to me while I was watching Blade Trinity. It was a combination of the input from the movie and my own love of darkness and horror that inspired them. To someone who’s not inside my head or unable to understand the pure creative mind, they might think that I was either suicidal or homicidal at the time I wrote them. I was actually in a really good mood and just having some happy horror movie time.
In the past, what I wrote was usually a direct representation of what I was thinking or feeling at the time that the piece was written. My life was hell more often than not, and I released a lot of my pain into my work, as well as the few points of happiness. Over time though, things changed. In latter volumes, probably from late in volume 9 and on from there, not all of the work represents how I felt in the moment.
I have been trying to learn how to write without being in pain and misery. Sometimes inspiration comes from a painful memory, or seeing someone else in pain. Sometimes I’m inspired by movies or music or dreams or nightmares as I mentioned in my previous post. It’s actually been hard to learn to write what I consider to be good work, when I’m not feeling that misery that was my driving force for so long. I’m working on it though, and letting inspiration come from wherever it may.
I figure you all might want to know that for when I start posting new work. I don’t want people to think that I’m having some emotional roller coaster thing going on. Although I will say that I do have a love of darkness, horror and I’ve got a bit of an “evil” streak that does come through in my work. That’s just me though, it’s not a problem or a bad thing.
By the way, if you ever want to know what the inspiration for any piece of my poetry was or what I was going through when I wrote it, please feel free to ask. I’m more than happy to share. Even the really bad times, they’re in the past and i can talk about them now. It would actually be cool if people were interested enough to want to know the story behind the poetry.