I’ve been feeling off for days, and I wasn’t sure why. It seemed like I couldn’t think, couldn’t write, and I just wasn’t feeling happy. Eric and I sat down last night trying to figure out something to do and ended up in deep conversation. We actually came across the source of our recent “blah” feeling, and how to work through it.
It turns out that we’ve both strayed off the spiritual and life path that we set ourselves on. We’re all about balance, and somehow we went way off track. We used to not be the greatest people. We were angry and bitter and hateful. We worked a lot over the years to be better, and life was getting really good. Unfortunately, we tried getting even “better”, and it ended up pushing us in the opposite direction.
We’ve learned a lot from researching Buddhism and other similar paths, and we were adopting a lot of that into our lives. We were being peaceful and kind and mellow. Unfortunately, we read too much and adopted too much and ended up just losing ourselves. We became pacifists to the point that we just weren’t really feeling anything. Not good. We went from one extreme to the other. Yes, you can have too much of a good thing.
So through lots of talking we realized that we had gone too far into the “fluffy bunny” territory and we need to get back to the balanced path. We need to be ourselves, just the best of ourselves. We were trying to become Buddhists, and that’s just not us. We went too far, but we can bring it back and get our happy back again.
That’s one of the great things about spiritual and personal growth. You can goof up, realize it pretty quickly, and get yourself back on track fast. Already I can feel the difference. I’m already happier and feeling motivated and positive again. Eric is feeding off my glow and getting back on track too. Lucky for us we live with our eyes open and it only took a handful of days for us to figure out what was off and correct it.