Sometimes my personal and spiritual growth scare me. There are times when I feel stagnant, or even feel that things have gone backwards a bit, then suddenly things shoot forward at a pace that makes me dizzy, sometimes literally.
You all may have noticed that I haven’t been around for a few days. I needed to take some time off to rest my mind and body and get my thoughts together. The first day was just “blah” as I tried to give my brain a break. On day two I actually worked, but instead of writing I scheduled Tweets to go out all the way through the middle of June. Saturday and Sunday however were quite something.
It was like inspiration came to me, and rather than a tap on the shoulder or a whisper, it was a megaphone pointed at my face. my mind was so full of new knowledge and understanding that I struggled to take it all in. Not only was I given new ideas and goals, decisions to change hit me like a brick.
Some of the things that I expressed feelings about just a month ago no longer feel true in my mind. In just a couple of days my ideas and feelings about things changed. The way I’m going to live my life is different. my priorities have shifted somewhat. It’s a lot to take in, but I’m rolling with it the best I can.
Sometimes I wish these ideas and life changes would come at me a bit more gently, but I guess that’s part of the challenge of life, you take what comes when it comes. I could resist, but that would likely slow things down too far.
So what does this mean for my writing? I’m not sure yet. I know of at least one article that I’m going to have to write an update to. I’m not sure about anything else just yet, but we’ll see as time goes on.
Have you ever had your personal or spiritual growth thrust you into big, head-spinning change?