So… The blog has been dead for a while. sigh Part of my mind wants to offer up a variety of reasons, but honestly, I’m too damn tired. The truth is, shit got to me. The dark, evil crap of the world reached in and crushed my creativity and confidence. I got that overwhelming feeling of “nothing matters and you can’t get it right anyway.” It sucked. It’s still there somewhat. It’s pissing me off. I’m working on it though.
That’s really all I can say. I’m working on it. I do want to write, I really do. Despite that ugly, dark force telling me that it’s worthless and doesn’t matter, I really want to. I have things to say and I want to get them out there. I actually started writing a new book, thinking that might be the better way to go, but now I have no damn idea on that front. Of course, the battle between writing things for free on the blog and putting them in book form is something that I’ve had to deal with more than once.
I am still here though, and that’s what I want to express right now. I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth, I’m not dead, I’m not in some godawful pit of despair either. I’m having a rough time with the shit of the world pushing down on me, but I’m doing what I can to push back. It’s not as easy as I want it to be, but I’m trying.
I’m hoping that I can shake this off, and whether it be by book or blog, get my ideas flowing out to the world again. I really do feel like there’s a lot that I need to share, like there are these truths that just have to be put out in the world, regardless of what anyone might do with them. I’ll get it done, it’s just going to come in its own time.