Today I cleared off my tablet of all the useless apps and installed Jorte. I didn’t install the calendar for work though, I installed it to help me to remember to do more important things. I know, that sounds odd. What could be more important than work? Well, there’s reading, meditating, yoga, spiritual practices and all sorts of things. I got so tied up in working all the time that I let myself feel like I didn’t have time for the things that are truly important in my life.
Don’t get me wrong, my business is very important to me. I do want to create things and sell them and have a successful business. The thing is, I got to where that’s all my life was about. Years ago things were different. I used to have spiritual practices and exercise and read books, and I created things and ran a business. The difference between then and now is that back then I felt like I had a life and spiritual connection, and my business was very successful. Then things changed, and now I feel no spiritual connection, I’m stressed a lot and my business isn’t doing well. Obviously, something fell apart somewhere.
I decided to take all the games and useless apps off my tablet and install a nice calendar that would allow me to get reminders to do the things that matter in life. I need to re-form good habits that keep my mind and body healthy. When my mind and body were in the right place, I never had any trouble in business, even when others in my field were struggling and failing. I know a lot of people think that the only way to succeed is to work more and work harder and happiness then comes out of that, but I have found that the opposite is true. When I was happier and healthier, business was easy. I believe that if I can get that back again, the struggles I’ve been facing in my business will just fall away.
It’s going to take some time to get back into the swing of things, but I think it will get my life back on track. In the midst of this, I’m also trying to shut up the part of my brain that feels rushed due to my age. The truth is, far older people have changed their lives and lived to enjoy the rewards. I’m still young enough to make changes and enjoy what comes of it. I may be 39, but I sure don’t feel that old, so I probably have a good, long life ahead of me if I get myself straightened out soon.
In December I vowed that 2016 was going to be the year that changed everything, and I have been trying to make that true. That black shroud of the world has made it hard, but I keep fighting it. I am going to do this! I will make changes and have the life I want and deserve. I just need to keep at it, and I’m sure that as I find the things that are right and the things that work, it will get easier.