I mentioned the other day that much to my dismay, I discovered that I’d let myself become a niche writer. I put myself and my skill into a box and thought that’s where I had to stay. I should have been smarter than to allow that to happen to me, but hey, we all make mistakes no matter how far down this path of change we come. So, lesson learned, and I’ll do my best not to make the same mistakes again.
What really gets me is that I’m already feeling better. It’s actually Sunday evening right now, just after 8 PM, and this is the third article that I’m writing. I can already feel my passion coming back to me, and it’s such a wonderful thing. It’s like the world opened back up, like opening the windows to let in spring air after a long, musty winter. It’s been a while since I just wrote and wrote like this, and had pieces ready before they needed to go up. I always loved being that inspired.
What’s interesting too is that even though I’m now open to writing about anything, I find myself wanting to write about things that actually still have lessons involved. I have no idea why I wasn’t thinking of them before. I guess I just got myself stuck, and believing that I was limited to writing a certain way made my brain close off to more than I anticipated. I guess it doesn’t really matter now though, because I’m feeling open and motivated, and that’s what’s truly important.
I feel like I’m getting myself back now, if that makes sense to you. This whole change from Bubblews to the blog and trying to choose a voice has really thrown me off. I keep forgetting that I need to just be myself and let go of all the damn limitations. I am frequently stunned and upset as I realize all the limitations that we put onto ourselves. We hold ourselves back so much it’s not even funny. We think it’s other people doing it, but really, we sabotage ourselves so much that no one else really needs to.
I’ve got a feeling that somehow or other this week is going to be better than the last. I need to hold on to that feeling. The thing is, there’s no reason for it not to be true. Hell, it’s already better in some ways, because I’m feeling more inspired than I was last week, I have ideas I didn’t have last week, and I have hope that I didn’t have last week. So I’m already on a pretty good roll. I just have to keep my eyes open for all the other ways that this week gets better than the last.
I’ve got to say that I’m pretty psyched right now. I’m eager to let go and just write. I’m not going to worry about what I’m writing or how I’m writing it, I’m just going to dig deep and let it all out. I bet it’ll be great. It’ll certainly be interesting at the very least. I have the talent, the desire and the ability to give a lot to the world, I want and need to keep doing that. I also need to remember that what I do does have value, and what I put out will surely come back to me.