Do you remember a while back when I said that all the self-help writing was getting kind of heavy for me and I was looking for a way to bring more happy and interesting to the blog? Well, I’ve been thinking about that a lot and actually getting depressed over it, because I couldn’t figure out how to do self-help that was happy and fun, and that made me think I must not be a very good writer.
After all, a “good writer” is “supposed” to write only in a niche, right? [slaps forehead] Yeah, I fell into one of those rule traps that I tell people to avoid. I did what’s expected and considered “right”, instead of doing what I really wanted to do. It’s funny how sometimes you realize you’ve got this deep-seated programming that you didn’t know was there before.
Today I’d only been able to write the one post and I was feeling so depressed and talentless. I used to be able to write 10 posts every single day, and lately I’ve been struggling to do four or five. I was actually curled up in my bedroom crying. Eric started talking to me, trying to get me out of this rut, and the topic of our second blog came up. We had been intending to do a second blog so that I could write about all the non-self-help things that I used to enjoy.
He said that he didn’t think we should do two blogs. Why go to all the work of trying to make two blogs popular? It’s not what you’re “supposed” to do, but I was really happy when I was writing for Bubblews and I wrote mostly self-help, but I also wrote about movies and games and animals and a million other little things. I was using every part of who I am, tapping into all my talents, and people loved me. I was gaining popularity right up to the day I left, and had fans even after I was gone.
Writing for this blog is great for the most part, but As Eric so eloquently pointed out, the blog and I have become kind of a one-note meal. It’s all the same thing, and it might be boring people. It’s not that I don’t write good content and do it well, it’s that I only write about one thing. The eclectic nature that people loved about me (and that I loved about myself) has been fading. I stopped being all of me and put myself in a niche. I love the self-help writing, but it’s not all that I love.
So instead of making two blogs, we can put all our content here. Sure, it’ll be like going to a restaurant that serves sushi and tacos and lasagna and filet mignon, which is kind of strange, but hey, you can always get something you like and you’ll never get bored. I’ll have to add some new categories, but the variety could be a really good thing. I miss being eclectic and the inspiration that it gave me. I’m the kind of person who can be writing about strawberry Twinkies and it’ll inspire me to write something life-changing. I need to get that back.
So, brace yourself for a lot more variety. I don’t know why I didn’t just do this in the first place, but what the hell, I’m doing it now. You live and learn, right? So I’ll be posting the older stuff that I didn’t put here before and I’ll be writing whatever strikes my fancy from one day to the next. And hey, you never know what I can fit a life lesson into. [smiles] I’m freaky that way. Man, I feel so much better now!